On Friday, I finished a job. The job which has been up, down and around and has left me in a state of anxiety for the last year or so. On Wednesday, I start a new one. I have these three days to myself, to just take a deep breath before packing my lunch and heading out on this new journey.
I thought I was certain about my decision, but for the reduction in salary, I was set. Then late Friday afternoon, on my final Brisbane day, there was talk of changing things around, making it work better for me, the possibility of staying on. I became confused. I became uncertain of my decision and worried about a few aspects of that decision.
I'm sure this worry caused the almighty headache I was struck with on Saturday, which lingered in to Sunday. I guess I need to write myself a list and clear out my head.
Today I watched my girl read a little story on stage at her school assembly. I have rested, op shopped and had a delicious tempura udon soup for lunch. I'm now going to grab the kids and hang with them.
Being a grown up is hard.